Perfection.

I was reminded today about how my obession to achieve perfection could potentially be holding me back from enjoying 'normal' things and could be keeping me held in a state of blackness.
Ive often thought my high standards were necessary, necessary to achieve something, necessary to be someone worthwhile. Is there any point aiming to achieve such unrealistic goals? Its like setting yourself up to fail.
I thrive on failure, it reinforces all the already negative thoughts my mind cannot escape from and helps me remain in the calm below reality; numbness.
I will never achieve perfection, as beauty is in the eye of the beholder, yet i remain to try.
xSx

Who You Are - Jessie J

I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould , yeah!
The more I try the less it's working yeah yeah yeah
Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos
Fake shows like woah
Just go, and leave me alone
Real talk real life
Good love goodnight
With a smile that's my home
That's my home

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are
<3