I was reminded today about how my obession to achieve perfection could potentially be holding me back from enjoying 'normal' things and could be keeping me held in a state of blackness.
Ive often thought my high standards were necessary, necessary to achieve something, necessary to be someone worthwhile. Is there any point aiming to achieve such unrealistic goals? Its like setting yourself up to fail.
I thrive on failure, it reinforces all the already negative thoughts my mind cannot escape from and helps me remain in the calm below reality; numbness.
I will never achieve perfection, as beauty is in the eye of the beholder, yet i remain to try.
xSx
Wednesday 4 May 2011
Who You Are - Jessie J
I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould , yeah!
The more I try the less it's working yeah yeah yeah
Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!
Yes, no, egos
Fake shows like woah
Just go, and leave me alone
Real talk real life
Good love goodnight
With a smile that's my home
That's my home
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are
<3
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould , yeah!
The more I try the less it's working yeah yeah yeah
Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!
Yes, no, egos
Fake shows like woah
Just go, and leave me alone
Real talk real life
Good love goodnight
With a smile that's my home
That's my home
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are
<3
Wednesday 5 January 2011
A Little Brighter..
Its always amazes me that the ability to change the whole outlook of your day can lie on one thing. Whether it be: a compliment somebody has paid you on your outfit or hairstyle, a good deed or even just spending time with those close to you, it never fails to flip around what seems to be a bad day.
Today a close friend helped me to change the outlook of my day. She reminded me of the importance to stay positive, to take a step back when things start to overwhelm you and, finally, not to bottle things up when things appear too much - something I subconsciously continue to do. She never fails to inspire me with her words of wisdom and such an optimistic view of life; and turning up on my doorstep with a good mag and some beautiful flowers reminded me of how lucky I was to have people like her in my life- people who know about your past but care about your future, the best friends.
Words cannot describe how grateful I am.
x.S.x
Today a close friend helped me to change the outlook of my day. She reminded me of the importance to stay positive, to take a step back when things start to overwhelm you and, finally, not to bottle things up when things appear too much - something I subconsciously continue to do. She never fails to inspire me with her words of wisdom and such an optimistic view of life; and turning up on my doorstep with a good mag and some beautiful flowers reminded me of how lucky I was to have people like her in my life- people who know about your past but care about your future, the best friends.
Words cannot describe how grateful I am.
x.S.x
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